Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Jumping


Did you ever see a movie where a character was compelled by an outside force to do something catastrophic? The example that comes to mind is the famous scene at the beginning of “The Omen,” where Damien’s nanny hangs herself under his Satanic spell.

Well, I just had a somewhat similar dream. I was doing photography at night, and walking near a prison, or some other highly secure facility surrounded by razor wire. I saw a pattern of clouds over the roof that I wanted to photograph, and I ran toward the fence and began climbing it, in order to leap over and get a better picture from the prison yard. Even as I was doing it I realized it was crazy, but I felt powerless -- I was being compelled to jump that fence. I went over the top and snagged my clothing on the razor wire, which meant I couldn’t quite jump free. I woke up just before I got sliced to ribbons.

Control issues, anyone? I mean, sheesh!

It’s true that there have been a lot of forces working against my routines lately, some of them good and some of them not. (The negatives are largely related to work.) This dream tells me I’m still a bit conflicted about moving away from my orderly, self-determined existence to one where I’m doing lots of new things and, well, growing. I’m also conflicted about my own distracting compulsions and resistances (to practice and sitting, for example).

Dreams are so funny!

(Photo: Street art in SoHo, June 2009)

5 comments:

Barbara said...

Dreams don't let one hide, do they? I hope when the opportunity to jump comes, you're able to jump free!

Reya Mellicker said...

Your dream is fantastic - and so clear! I love it when they're so easy to understand.

It's no wonder you're conflicted about moving away from a place of safety and familiarity - even if it has become a jail of sorts.

You're so healthy minded Steve - you will move at your own speed, and do exactly what's right at exactly the right time. Believe me.

mum said...

That must have been some cloud pattern you saw in the dream. Do you remember it at all?

Steve said...

Actually, no. I don't remember thinking it was very significant, though.

LadrĂ³n de Basura (a.k.a. Junk Thief) said...

That style of SOHO street art is very similar to what we have in the Mission.