Monday, March 3, 2008
I ended up spending most of yesterday at the Zendo, practicing in the morning and attending a steering committee meeting in the afternoon.
It’s funny -- when I first went to the Zendo, four years ago, Zen felt very easy to me. I quite confidently felt that I had a natural affinity for it -- that I understood it and was already somewhat in touch with my Buddha nature. But over time, my confidence in practice has gradually diminished. Now I often feel like I’m wandering in the wilderness. I guess that’s a step forward!
Oh, and I did finally have a chance to rest up. I had a terrific dinner and evening with a good friend, and then went to sleep at 9:30 p.m. Whew!
(Photo: Alfred Hitchcock in the East Village, Feb. 2008)