Thursday, January 10, 2013
Return of the Ghost Dog
I was walking in Portobello Road yesterday when I noticed the Ghost Dog is back -- that little light spot on the doorway around the corner from the shop that served as the bookstore in the movie "Notting Hill."
In late December 2011 I photographed this same light spot -- at a slightly different time of day, which gave it a different placement on the door. I used the photo to illustrate a painful post about our decision to euthanize our two old, sickly dogs, Ernie and Ruby.
That's why I think of this spot as the Ghost Dog.
It was interesting to see it again, at roughly the same time of year. Something about the angle of the sun, I suppose, and the way it hits whatever glass surface creates this reflection.
We put Ernie and Ruby to sleep on Dec. 30, 2011. A few weeks ago, when we were in Florida, I made a mental note of the anniversary, but didn't write about it. I didn't even mention it to Dave until a day or two later. Being busy, busy, busy with family helped us traverse what could have been a sad, solemn day.
Mourning is such an interesting process. It's so intense at the beginning you literally think you might die. It hurts even to breathe. And then over time, all that pain subsides to a reasonable level, like a mountain sinking into the sea. It becomes more like a dull ache. (I realize this isn't a particularly deep observation -- we've all been through it, right?)
I can honestly say that now, while I still miss Ruby and Ernie, I think more of our happier moments than the sadness and regret that accompanied their ending.
We're still taking tentative steps toward getting another dog. Dave has contacted some rescue organizations, and I'm thinking a visit to the Battersea Dogs' Home may be in order -- though Dave has expressed worry about taking me there, fearing that I'll come home with as many dogs as I can carry!